Sunday, January 3, 2016

The Seven

Dear Dax,

I remember when we were just little boys and you were my first friend I can recall. We used to play madden up in your upstairs on your old PS2. To this day you still always beat me when we play. You taught me how to be cool when all I wanted to do was play video games or play with my Pokemon. You're the only person I ever knew that was a You-gi-ho guy. Your four-wheeler was the coolest thing ever we always rode it around he town and I thought it was the coolest thing ever. We would play baseball and other sports in you and the murdocks backyard all through the night. You taught me every dirty joke I know. You said the first swear word from anyone of my friends. Jaden used to punch you when you did and I just sat and watched. We used to hate soccer and in your old days now youve betrayed that. I remember you calling kostner and tanner "fagotts" for playing it when I asked you what that means you just explained it meant a pile of sticks. I have learned in my later years that this is a lie and it actually is a derogatory line. I remember winning the 3 titles with you with Thayne and him bullying us. I beat you in the ring of champions in 9th grade so suck it. One time you slowed down and ran with me because I was always last to the fence so you fell on the sword and slowed down with me. When you moved it broke my heart. I had no one in my whole ward since we started hating Jaden at this point. I only went to your house once up in suncrest and we only came to throw our garbage all over your yard. We took biology in 9th grade and made yellek's life hell. We also made mama rach give us backscratches and I don't think we did one assignment the whole year. Dirty don was our savior doing all of our stuff. When you hit your new house it was heaven. That's all we did all summer. I still am upset you kissed Jenni before any of us did but I did make out on your tramp a bunch of times and in your guest room so in your face on that. Then that one time your dad made me eat those Big Macs and I threw them up and had to eat it still but I got 100 bucks from it. I thought your dad was going to murder us when swain through up all over your court and he bleached it then he caught you guys skinny dipping and I thought I'd never see you again. I just assumed I'd see your name in an obituary and that'd be the end of it. When we ballooned the you know who's in alpine I remember me and you scared senseless of getting caught. Then you were dumb and we used those meats ton that guys lawn that had your last name on it but holy did we make that garbage can light up. Then last year in psychology me, you, zoo and Juan didn't do one thing beside blurt out inappropriate comments and play basketball in the back. My favorite memory ever of you was in my backyard burning all that stuff in the fire and you coming up and hugging me for a few minutes as we watched it burn. I know I never really said anything face to face but I'm beyond sorry for the whole maddie thing I'm glad you finally forgave me. You've always been so good to me and because you're crude and a little standoffish a lot of people miss out on how good of a person you are. There's no one on this planet that I would rather here a joke from or want in my corner for a fight. Thank you for everything and I've loved every step of the way with you.

Love,
Steven O. Jordan

Dear Swain,

I think our first interaction was your taking a snap from me in 7th grade on Calls team. That was such a fun year and it's too bad we couldn't get it done in the playoffs. We truly became close in mr jolleys class. We always knew he was a little off we found out years later we were right. We went every Saturday to watch the BYU games at Mitch's place. Every week we would wrestle and play video games for hours. After losing in 8th grade I remember that we decided we would do anything to win that next year you had broken your arm because of the dumb kayla curse. We would run to Newport every morning in the cold before school to lift. Sadly most of the time we were so tired we just lifted half hearted but then we made grandma take us so that helped. Every day after school you'd come home with my TMS carpool and they always hated it but we'd always go over to footes because she had the coolest house. We were there every day hanging with her and Elly. Then we came up with riotball. At first it was super fun but then it just turned into a dirty cheap shot game that was just really painful. When we first met wellman we would go and play one vs one in his basement for hours. You'd always beat me because I was freaking awful. When we hit 9th grade we were as close as can be. I never laughed harder than when Thayne called you a little troll or when he blamed our loss on you leaving to the notre dame game. We went to that Texas game and we hid under the bleachers and you about had a heart attack because your hand was by a black widow. Then we had Barksdales and we hit on Aubrey streetman and Brinley Robinson for an hour a day. Brinley was your first kiss and I was the only one that got to witness it. We pulled a switchie that night. That's a top 15 memory ever for me. That summer we lived at Claire's house and she became our best friend. We would leave her house at 1 in the morning back before that was normal. We had the biggest crush on ally and when you held her hand during PLL I thought you were gonna die. (P.S. I'm still mad she didn't marry one of us) I was so mad when she wanted to kiss and you said no. I'll never forgive you for it. I miss her house a lot. Then we started going to rach's every week for OJ and we made a pact we would make out in her little private room. Caden cocked blocked you that summer and it ruined our whole night. We also showered with frank at Dax's. When he's in the NBA we will always have that as our claim to fame. Our friendship has kind of dwindled in high school but we have still had some great times. When we stole my parents car to go to meadow is an all timer. You've always been the one kid I have wanted to beat at everything and anything at any point and have taught me competitive drive. I'm so grateful for you always. You have no idea what you have done for me. We have had so many great runs to late night meals with such heated arguments over how hot girls are or some sports argument. Thank you for everything.

Love,
Steven O. Jordan

Dear Zoo,

I don't care what Dax says I was your first friend when you moved here. We were at summer camp in 10th grade and my dad told me about this tall, skinny kid from Missouri that had just moved in and was going to play on our team. I'm the one who came up with zoo too just so we are on the same page I'm the first one to call you that. I got your number and invited you to come to Claire's party with us. It is true that you truly started hanging with us because you are in Dax's ward. Dax may have started teaching me dirty stuff but you sure as crap answered any questions and further elaborated on anything that I didn't understand. You were the first one of us to get a lot of girls. At the time most of us were at one or two. I remember sitting around for hours a night just listening to your crazy stories that made me laugh my head off. Every party we went to you were my favorite part of it. You didn't get your license till you were almost 17 and it made me so mad. Every lunch when we were juniors was spent in chemistry working our butt off to get a good grade. Sadies of this year was one of the funniest days of my life. We definitely did kill it. Oh ya I beat you in one vs one too. Don't forget that. My favorite memory of you is when we threw all of those condoms around the burgess park parking lot then the police officer made you pick them up while we all laughed at you. Again I owe you the biggest apology with the whole maddie thing and I am sorry beyond belief. Thank you for forgiving me even if it was only for good I don't have a ton of memories with you sadly but thank Like I said with Dax very few people see how good of a person you are. You're actions don't match it but I see how good your heart truly is. You will always be my zoosh.

Love,
Steven O. Jordan

Dear Bwell,

I struggle writing this because I can go so many ways with this because no single man outside of my parents has done so much for me than you have. Our first encounter was when I picked you for me and Kota's softball team. I just picked you because the other guy didn't look like he could chew gum and walk at the same time so don't think you're all high and mighty. I remember the first time we came to your house. We came over on New Year's Day and played basketball for hours then had some girls over to watch the stranger in the woods or whatever that show was called. We've seen in 100 times and I'm still scared by it. Then our friendship only grew through foods class after we won the iron chef and all the chaos we caused in 9th grade with everyone. Oh ya and you dated Madeline don't forget that. That summer was incredible. I had an incredible time with you. You introduced me to heather and I couldn't be more grateful. Sadly you also made out with her before me haha. It still breaks my heart you are not at Lone Peak. I miss you every single day. I loved going to Lake Powell with you every year. All of our jokes too with Paul not being able to swim and him making fun of our womanizing skills. I'm always grateful when you come ballooning with me because you are as big of a pansy as I am. The night you got your first kiss I thought you'd never be that happy in your life again. I thought I was going to out due you by telling you about how awesome my night was but how little did I know. Me and you never seem to do a whole ton when we are together but no matter what I always leave a smarter and better person. No one on this planet makes talking In a car for two hours so appealing. The greatest memory by far is you picking me up from school and taking me to lunch on the hardest day of my life. Throughout the years I have learned so much from you. There is nothing I can do to ever show my immense gratitude I have for you. I hope you know how much I love and admire you.

Love,
Steven O. Jordan

Dear Jentz,

In 8th grade your dad asked me if you could sleep over. Before this point I don't even know if we had said a word before. I'm beyond grateful for that. You've always been the quieter but by far the wittiest of all our friends. Your invention of the prison riots were nothing but genius. Then to follow it up with all of the crazy things throughout the year to finish of the year with the TMS student section. When we almost made that one kid cry by calling him greasy jones or when Tyson hit that game winner and we got all up in the Mtn ridge kids face. The greatest though is when we made goob stand up when Kelp was shooting his free throws and he missed both of them. You taught me how to sneak into the Marriott center, sweet talk my way out of everything, how to be funny and to take joy in all of the simple joys in life. I always dominate you in laser tag I'm still confused why you even try. My two favorite memories of you are when me, you, jimmy, your dad and Britt went camping up at your cabin. We went to the fish hatchery and shot blow darts in the eyes of them. Then I accidentally broke your dads window by shooting it with a slingshot. The other one is where we drove down to LA for the USC game. I had to sleep on that disgusting ground that had AIDS all over it. A 9 hour car ride has never been dinner in my life. Plus all the USC fans were way cool to us. You have been such an example to me on how to make the most out of your situation. Me and you have never been the friends who talk about anything that deep but I hope you know how deep my admiration for you is.

Dear Britt,

In 5th grade you changed the course of my life. When you invited me over to your home on a Friday. Before you I was just a chubby little video game boy. Outside of hanging with Dax it was just me and Captain America playing battlefront in my upstairs. We were close as friends could be. I would be up at your home every day. We would play the old nazi zombies or play handball in your backyard with Jake, Jaden and Dax. In 7th when they did A and B teams it sucked because it was the first time we hadn't been on each other's team. I remember coming to your championship game where you guys beat Lehi cuz frank dropped that touchdown. We started building the man cave around there. I don't know why we thought it was so cool it was just a freezing attic. But we had so much freaking fun up up there. I don't think we had a class in middle school together outside of men's choir. That class was complete and utter chaos. Everyday we had some new thing to drive Mrs Jolley insane. She was the worst. In 9th when we finally were on the same team it was like Christmas morning for me. Sadly Thayne was the biggest bully of all time. When we had to run for storming the court and we thought Pan had died on field. I was so grateful when that season was done. But you had to go and foul grant bean in the playoffs of junior jazz so we freaking lost. We started building Mary moon that spring. I don't think I have ever been happier than that few month stretch going into 10th grade. When you were in love with Rachel we would always tag along so we could take her OJ. She always had the best OJ. Sophomore year was such a blast. That was the funniest year of football for me by far. You were nothing short of my taxi that whole year. I was always 3rd wheeling you with Shelby. Then Tyler and Breck took my spot. Gary Dunns class was awesome. We had so much fun with Zach. I still kind of miss him as crazy as that sounds. When kayla gave me a kiss for my 16th birthday I about died and we talked on the phone for an hour about it. That summer with all those parties with T Ev were nothing short of incredible. When we stopped being friends when we were juniors it absolutely destroyed me. Ya it was awful with everyone else too but it felt like my insides were ripped out. I didn't even know how to say hi to you. I'm so grateful I got the guts to say something to you at trek about it. I couldn't be more grateful for you. Thank you for being such a great role model for me. Love you Big B.

Love,
Steven O. Jordan

Dear Seven,

I miss us all being friends. It sucks that we all broke up and went our separate ways. I hope you guys understand how grateful I am for every single one of you and how much I love you guys.

Forever brothers under the sun





Steven O. Jordan

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Things I did in 2015

I played part two in trifecta

Went to trek

Worked at a law firm over the summer

Went to prom

Met my boy Jaiden

Fell in love with boxing

Finally beat my dad in 1vs1

Became best friends with Kenn 

Beat wellman in laser tag

Won a church ball championship (suck it Britt)

Went to Lake Powell 

Watched frank sign with duke

Named my car

Kissed my sophomore crush

Watched all 7 Star Wars in one day

Fell in love with Tupac and Biggie

Won 3 flag football championships

Coached the worst team in girl junior jazz history and possibly the best one this season

Watched Claire move away after 8 years of being best friends

Turned 17

Taught beckham how to say straight cash homie

Beat assassins creed

Realized riddler is my favorite superhero or villain

Slept for 13 hours one day

Beat airbornes American Ninja warrior 

Decided I wanted to go on a mission

Lost to an Indian reservation in the 2A title game

Lost 8lbs

Took acutane

Got in a car crash

Tried a sushi burrito

Found Denace

Put Christmas lights up in my car

Got my heart broken twice 

Finished HIMYM for the second time

Played on the beach in Newport

Became the quorum leader

Went to Davanzas 

Got my wisdom teeth taken out

Went to Freddy's 

Got to see my Knicks 

Went to the temple for the first time in my life

Wrote a letter to Colin cowherd 

Punched Kanab in the face

Stole my parents car and took it to the hot pots for a night

Saw 8 mile

Got my French horn

Slept over at kyes

Saw my dad cry for one of the first times in my life

Kicked a door in

Hung out with Roman

Went hammocking 

Got a ticket for speeding 

Hit my first 3-pointer

My car turned 10,000

Saw the lights

Became friends with Britt Dax and Zoo

Watched the greatest finals performance ever

Went sledding

Took my parents credit card and bought 4 jerseys from China

Please I beg of you 2016 be as good to me as 2015

Steven O. Jordan

Sunday, December 20, 2015

Dating: the endangered practice

I was scrolling down Twitter last night and I saw an interesting trend. I saw approximately 100 tweets give or take. 40 or so we're about the usual sports another 20 were interesting facts and about 20 were just random things people I was following decided to share. But 15- 20 had about the same meaning or theme. They were all girls whining about dates no longer happening or how "chivalry" and respect are dead with boys. This by no means is uncommon, in fact to go on Twitter and not see this complaining is a rarer sight.

I layed in my bed thinking about it I thought of the 3 main causes for it: social media and forms of communication, girls and boys. 

So we start off with the leader in my mind which is media and communication. With all of the forms of communication boys don't have to ask out anymore. Why would they? They want to get to know you? They go on Twitter or Instagram and look down there feed of pictures and other things they have posted. If you spend 20 mins stalking someone on there profile you can tell what there interests are, who there friends are, depending what they tweet on there personality. Plus with all of the pictures they put on there you can tell the physical attraction level. To add to this we have been giving the wonderful tools of texting and other forms of communication that allows boys to not have to ever talk to you in person because we can learn all we want from these interactions. Why would we ever take you out with all of these tools? All of the pictures on them are a highlight reel. Social media also adds a layer of unachieveable "relationship goals" or "chill dates" that make the average dinner and a movie seem bland or unappealing to someone being invited to these activities which sadly are the more realistic. To add to that movies and other forms of media convince us that our attraction to women is nothing but a sexual lust. Feelings aren't real only sex is. As does the rising rate of porn viewing. If in the back of young men's mind is engraved why would they want to date? Sex is the only thing that matters? They're not humans only objects. To put the cherry on top the new styles now a day is to exploit the sexuality of woman and to have them be provocative making it easier for their counterparts to view them as objects. 

Now the girls. First thing first I believe with every fiber of my being that every woman deserves true love and the highest admiration from a young man no matter what the circumstances are. That being said, for some reason this generation of girls thinks they're entitled to a "Notebook" story and their very own Ryan gosling. They are not. You may have to work for it a bit. You may have too look outside yourself and appealing more than just what you wear. Why would a guy ask you out if all he thinks is you're self centered? You guys preach that you want dates but the kids that would be willing to take you out you would say no to? You don't think you would? Oh I hear you talk about that "creepy" kid in your math class and how you talk about how weird he is. The poor kid has never talked to a girl in his life and doesn't know how to act. You make him flustered because he has a crush on you and doesn't know how to show you. Ya you would shoot him down in 2.111 seconds after he suggests you guys should go to a movie Friday and without hesitation you explain to him how you have to mow your lawn all Friday night even though it's December. Heaven forbid you ask the boys out to dates and take some form of action for something you want instead of expecting someone else to do it for you. You guys want a guy to care about you so much but won't do what's necessary to make it happen. Instead of waiting for a good guy or a legitimate date you are so desperate for their attention or affection you settle for "Netflix and chill or "drives". Everyone knows what that means. Hooking up with them may bring a sense of accomplishment and joy for a brief time but overall further increases your desire for something real. If you hold on and don't accept hookups and make boys take you on real dates they will come it may just take some time.

I believe that men should hold women in the highest regard because they are truly are better half and we should treat them like that. Everyman will at some point come to realize this. Sadly very few of them do this while they're in their young teen years causing confusion for their feelings and what to do with them at a younger age. They look to whatever is around them to teach them how to act. Again this ties to the media that they are most familiar with. If you see young beautiful women in bikinis running along the beach that may have no sexual meanings behind as an 9 year old boy your body is built to be aroused by that. Slowly your mind becomes calloused to these thoughts and ideas because you're surrounded by them. Unfortunately this more cases than not leads to pornography, completely desensitizing true feelings from primitive sexual urges. A lot of men feel that dating is just to please these desires. They understand how bad women crave desire and attention and exploit it with little to no effort at all. Why if I wanted to kiss a girl would I take her on 3 dates costing me around 60 dollars over a span of a month if she gives it out after talking at lunch four times texting for a little over a week, finally taking a drive up the canyon for free and achieving what I want? If a guy wants to know a girl on a deeper level he just talks to her or invites her over with no deeper intentions. It's free and you do not have the fear of rejection as you would with asking her out and often times you learn more about someone with a heart to heart in someone's kitchen than ice skating. Also dating is scary for boys. "What if she says no?" "What if I totally blow it and she hates it?" "I always chew with my mouth open... What if I forget to close it?" Why would they risk the embarrassment of the 1000x things that can go wrong?

I think it is an impossible thing to fix but I believe these things can help. Girls need to stop thinking they're above people and stop expecting that things will just fall in their lap and actually be nice to people demand respect instead of being ok with being objectified. Boys need to stop treating girls as objects and with respect understanding that they're someone's daughters. 

My feelings: I hate dating. I think dating around with no feelings toward them just for and hooking up is dumb. There are three girls that I have met that made me want to date and spend all my money and time with. Outside of this I have done very little dating or have wanted to. This all being said this practice is important to high school. It probably will only become more rare as the issues stated before only become more prevalent sadly. I would encourage those who are thinking about asking someone out please do. You may never know how much that person needs it or what I may lead to.

Steven O. Jordan

Sunday, December 6, 2015

Lessons I have learned throughout my life



These are 100 lessons I have learned from the most influential people in my life wither it be good or bad:

1. Dad- Dedication and how to have true character and to be strong

2. Mom- that I'm unconditionally loved

3. Braden- how to be smart and true character of a great man 

4. Wes- how to be professional but to hold on to your childhood no matter how old you get

5. Bro Pyper- hope is always there

6. Colin Cowherd- being smart is the most important thing you can be

7. Sarah- how to be a best friend

8. Bear- unconditional loyalty

9. Heather- those close to you always hurt you the worst

10. Britt- hard work and effort

11. Kayla- how to truly care for someone

12. Grandpa Steve- life is never as good as it seems or as bad, it's somewhere in the middle

13. Eminem- everyone is just as screwed up in the head

14. Kennedie- selfishness is a destructive trait

15. Dax- how to be funny

16. Saunders- help can come in May different forms

17. Grandma Vickie- holding grudges can destroy life

18. Hooty- you are a product of your environment 

19. Beckham- how simple life really is

20. Thayne- picking on people that are less than you is a terrible thing

21. Doni- crap can hit the fan really fast and once it does it's hard to stop

22. Taylor- how to have someone you want to beat no matter what it takes and to have a true rivalry

23. Caden- how to truly hate someone with every fiber of my being

24. Jerome- how to fall in love with football

25. Maddie- what my perfect woman will be like

26. Claire- be yourself no matter what

27. Seth- just because you're Mormon doesn't mean you act like it 

28. Arrie- unconditional kindness to everyone 

29. Walkinghors- what happens when you desperately cling to the past

30. Jaden H.- friendships are conditional

31. Susan- how to make the most out of a crappy hand you got dealt

32. Jaiden- how to help a friend when they need you

33. Jentzen- no matter how bad your life is, as long as you smile you can get through anything

34. Grandpa Von- nothing you do is unforgivable 

35. Rob- how to give service to everyone around you 

36. Uncle josh- take everything lightly and with a good attitude

37. Barbra- family isn't always defined by blood

38. Harvey- losing isn't acceptable

39. Mckoy- how you can be a good person even when your actions don't follow it

40. Aunt Bec- how being a strict rule follower makes you rigid

41. Sean- sex destroys lives and affects more than just yourself 

42. Mckayla- how to kiss

43. Aunt Claire- there's more to the world than just the Mormon bubble

44. Johnny- how to turn the killer mentality on and off

45. Tyler- pride is an ugly trait

46. Lauren- happiness is a choice

47. Sean B.- importance of the church

48. Sierra- how to respect women

49. Senõra Swartz- mercy

50. Grandma becky- to love every person 

51. Cole- true brotherhood

52. Chad- just because you are rich doesn't mean you have to shove it down everyone's throat

53. Frank- even sports stars have real everyday problems like normal people

54. Toby- how to deal with disappointment and coming up short

55. Spencer- just because you act like an idiot doesn't mean you aren't brilliant

56. Liz- no matter how much talent you have somethings just aren't overcomable

57. Conner- why to never be lazy or idle

58. Jimmy- how to be a quick thinker 

59. Troy- football is just a game

60. Jenni- anything can happen in your life in a matter of seconds and change it forever

61. Macklemore- never forget your past

62. Ryan- how not to parent

63. Keenan- how friendships can shape ones future

64. Corbin- how to be cool

65. Justin- to be a complete waste of space

66. Tyler- how different someone can be in two different settings and that's ok

67. Mj- how to be a better big brother

68. Matt- addiction can be overcome

69. Sam- how fast your life can go down hill if you aren't making good choice

70. Aubrey- love blinds your judgement

71. Maggie- just because you see someone one way doesn't mean that's who they are 

72. Bro Powell- explained how you can be a good person even when you make a mistake

73. Dawson- how to get girls

74. Lexi- kissing ruins friendship 

75. Poison- every rose has its thorn

76. Colin- how to waste gods given talent

77. Harley- how to smile again

78. Nelson- how to express myself

79. Talmage- stereotypes don't fit everyone 

80. BoBo- no matter how many advantages you have in life you can always find a way to screw yourself over

81. Brooke- letting people help isn't a sign of weakness

82. Bro beck- just because you are an old man doesn't mean you have a stick up your butt

83. Ellany- strengthened my convictions

84. Terrell- anger can consume you and make you so dumb things 

85. Kye- how to have no shame 

86. Parker- how you can completely turn your life around in a single year 

87. Ms. Wright- teachers understand way more than you give them credit to

88. Parker R.- the worst people can still have great advice

89. Sis Ottley- insanity 

90. Robert Greene- how to achieve true power

91. Andrew- having a mean streak can help and enhance your life

92. London- the difference between infatuation and real feelings

93. Biggie- a first impression always lasts even if you are no longer that person

94. Tyson- high school changes a man

95. Martin- true epitome of how you can't judge a book by its cover 

96. Cannon- how to have a big heart

97. Paul- not all Mormons look the same

98. Kostner- when you're a kid you can't understand the repercussions until you are older

99.   Mower- making the best of your situation

100. Nate- your parents aren't who you become

Steven O. Jordan

Sunday, November 29, 2015

The Riddle Is Solved


















My full name is Stockton Bart Brockbank. 

I chose the alias Steven O. Jordan to represent my biggest heroes growing up:
Steven Rogers
Oliver Queen
Hal Jordan 

To write something about myself would be worthless and misleading because everyone reading this sees me as a different person and has an opinion of me shaping your thoughts forming a completely different person than how anyone else sees me.

I hope the revealing of my identity doesn't change your viewing habits of me wether it makes you visit my blog more or the reverse

Hope I have helped anyone who has read my blog and for anyone that would like to discuss or critique my blog I would be more than happy to talk to you.

Steven O. Jordan


Sunday, November 22, 2015

An Ode to rap

Dear Marshall Mathers,

You're one of my idols. I remember hearing you for the first time. It was at my friends house when we were in 6th grade. I became obsessed with 'till I collapse. My parents wouldn't let me buy it on iTunes so I had to sneak on the computer to YouTube to hear it. 

I know it's crazy that I feel this way but I feel like I can relate to you. Which I understand how insane that sounds considering you grew up in a trailer park surrounded by tons of diversity in race and a single mom vs me who grew up wealthy with both my parents in a predominantly white community. 

This is the one key thing that I saw myself in you: we are both underdogs. Also feeling misunderstood and thinking people know you when they have no freaking clue who you really are.

I never got beat up for my skin or had abusive parents. My underdog story comes from being alone as a kid. I grew up as a chubby little boy without friends. I made my first few when I was in 5th grade. Even then they were always so much cooler than me and smarter that I still felt less than everyone. When we hit 7th grade I was still a large boy plus I had facial hair. To add that I had braces. Not one girl took a look at me. I just the D.U.F.F. to all of them. I was made fun of for being bigger and weird. They never took another look at me. I was awful at sports and it tore me up every day. 

When I was in 8th grade you released your recovery album and it changed my life. 

It's the greatest rap album ever.

25 to life was the greatest song I had ever heard. After hearing that I downloaded the whole album and fell in love with every song. This album had a song that spoke to everything I needed. After this I dive deeper into every album you have ever had.

I had found nirvana.

The beauty of your work is you have a song for everything. Every mood. No matter the issue or problem of the day you always had something to help fix or enhance the situation. 

Thank you for being there for when I fight with my parents, at the gym looking for motivation, when I want to rap something with my friends, when I have a bad day and want to punch through a wall, when I need a good slam song for a pretty girl, when my heart broke and when I lose self confidence.

People think because of all your earlier stuff that you are an idiot and all of your lyrics have references to anti-gay sayings, sexual references, overall vulgar language and inspires violence. They don't see how smart you are or how clever your wording is. You also have so much power in your words and such great lessons.

Lessons I have learned from it:

You have to lose yourself in your passion if you want to make it big

You can't truly know someone's struggles until you walk a thousand miles in their shoes

Love is evil

White trash people have lots parties

Drugs really screw you up

You can always turn into something great even when your situation may suck

Cut people out of your life that put you second 

Forgive everyone no matter what

Even fat people deserve love

Don't be mean to people with differences

Police are idiots 

You're beautiful no matter what people say

Breakups are painful no matter how long it's been

Nostalgia is a beautiful thing

That even music boxes you can make scary 

From hitting rock bottom you can get your best inspiration 

Even when you're gone you can leave an impression on people 

That even superman has a dirty side 

Wind is very cold when it's blowing hard

All kims are evil

Always remember what your name is- it's a mess if you don't

I'm forever thankful for everything you have done for me. I know I'll never meet you in my life but you have helped me in my life like you will never have a clue. Thank you and please keep writing.

Steven O. Jordan